The journey back into territory that has been conquered once, only to be reclaimed by the enemy, can certainly induce fear. Especially faith was a requirement to conquer the first trip.
Dan, despite the heavy darkness that must be present in your life (for both of you), your courage and transparency are inspiring countless people, some of whom may be facing a similar journey in their own lives. Your three months of celebration was a victory.
How many victories are allocated to us and how long are we able to celebrate those victories?

I cannot offer sufficient words to ease your mind or provide comfort, other than to let you know that despite being thousands of kilometres away, I am walking with you as a member of this great mass of humanity.